The creative restlessness. 

My questions. 

My question is: What do I want to be when I grow up? 
My other question is: What do I want to do to make money? 
My answer is: I think I have an idea. But I really don’t know. 
I know it’s going to be something creative. And I think it’s going to involve the sharing of stories. Stories are my favourite things. 

Let’s back it up. 

I had a double lung transplant at the end of November because Cystic Fibrosis had ruined my own lungs and I could barely breathe enough to function even while wearing oxygen tubing. (That’s a story for another blog post.) Now I’m feeling better than I’ve felt in years and have so much more energy. I’m getting married and moving into a new apartment with my guy – so many exciting things happening! But….what am I going to do

My unfocused creative pursuits. 

  • I have some skills in photography and editing. 
  • I have some basic skills in video editing. 
  • I have some writing skills and abilities. Poetry and essays mostly. 
  • I have a decent amount of experience in public speaking and an interest in podcasts. 

But I have no idea which one or ones I want to pursue. Maybe it will end up being a few of these or maybe none of the above. I have dabbled in all of them to some extent or another but I have no formal training and only bits of experience here or there. I have no certificates or university degrees. Sometimes due to my own choice and sometimes because my health made pursuing an education difficult. I know that whatever I choose is not a life sentence. If it doesn’t work out, I can change my mind. But where to start? How? 

The creative restlessness. 

This is bothering me. Getting to me. This not knowing what I want in this area of my life. I keep getting told that I’ll figure it out eventually, to give it time, try anything and everything, etc, etc. But I’m impatient to have a creative purpose. I need a direction so I have a creative outlet and can come up with ideas and plans and get down to creating! I’m eager to start connecting with people through whichever medium I choose to utilize. I’m eager for the stories that are sure to come. 

More questions. 

But again I ask, where to begin? 
And how? 
How do I figure out what is going to light me up? 

Well, hi there. 

If you are out there and you have advice or suggestions, I’m all ears. For serious, guys. Or, if you can relate to what I’m carrying on about, I’d love to hear about that too. Feel free to comment or send me an email! 

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