The creative restlessness. 

My questions. 

My question is: What do I want to be when I grow up? 
My other question is: What do I want to do to make money? 
My answer is: I think I have an idea. But I really don’t know. 
I know it’s going to be something creative. And I think it’s going to involve the sharing of stories. Stories are my favourite things. 

Let’s back it up. 

I had a double lung transplant at the end of November because Cystic Fibrosis had ruined my own lungs and I could barely breathe enough to function even while wearing oxygen tubing. (That’s a story for another blog post.) Now I’m feeling better than I’ve felt in years and have so much more energy. I’m getting married and moving into a new apartment with my guy – so many exciting things happening! But….what am I going to do

My unfocused creative pursuits. 

  • I have some skills in photography and editing. 
  • I have some basic skills in video editing. 
  • I have some writing skills and abilities. Poetry and essays mostly. 
  • I have a decent amount of experience in public speaking and an interest in podcasts. 

But I have no idea which one or ones I want to pursue. Maybe it will end up being a few of these or maybe none of the above. I have dabbled in all of them to some extent or another but I have no formal training and only bits of experience here or there. I have no certificates or university degrees. Sometimes due to my own choice and sometimes because my health made pursuing an education difficult. I know that whatever I choose is not a life sentence. If it doesn’t work out, I can change my mind. But where to start? How? 

The creative restlessness. 

This is bothering me. Getting to me. This not knowing what I want in this area of my life. I keep getting told that I’ll figure it out eventually, to give it time, try anything and everything, etc, etc. But I’m impatient to have a creative purpose. I need a direction so I have a creative outlet and can come up with ideas and plans and get down to creating! I’m eager to start connecting with people through whichever medium I choose to utilize. I’m eager for the stories that are sure to come. 

More questions. 

But again I ask, where to begin? 
And how? 
How do I figure out what is going to light me up? 

Well, hi there. 

If you are out there and you have advice or suggestions, I’m all ears. For serious, guys. Or, if you can relate to what I’m carrying on about, I’d love to hear about that too. Feel free to comment or send me an email! 


Photos After Dark in Mexico

At the end of my last post about my trip to Mexico I promised to post some of my photography from the trip. Well I finally finished sorting through the hundreds of pictures I took and am ready to post some!

I learned a couple of neat techniques from Greg Johnson, the Tornado Hunter, who taught the photography workshops during the trip. During the sunset shoots I learned how to give the waves and water a soft, fuzzy effect which looks super pretty. I also learned how to shoot pictures of the stars which I absolutely loved!

All my photos were shot on my Nikon D5300 with the standard 16-35mm lens that came with it.

This was the first time that I played with these techniques and settings on my camera so I obviously have room for improvement but I’m so glad that I got to try these out for the first time by the ocean in Mexico!

If you want to check out Greg Johnson you can find him here

Hospital Stays, Photography, and the Ocean Breeze

I can now say I’ve been to Mexico!

In December I booked a spot on the Tornado Hunter Mexico photo tour and I was so excited! Greg Johnson, the Tornado Hunter, is well known for taking tornado and storm pictures but he also teaches photography workshops and has done several photo tours or retreats. The trip included a stay at an all-inclusive resort at Akumal in Quintana Roo, Mexico. During the trip Greg would be teaching photography workshops and would be available to help everyone improve their photography skills. There were also a couple of days set aside to take the group on excursions off the resort to photograph some of the cool places Mexico has to offer.

In January, my friend Adrienne who had just started her own film company with the intent of telling peoples’ stories asked if she could join me on the trip and follow me around with a camera documentary-style to capture my journey as her first big project for her new company. I, of course, was all for it! We have only been friends since the summer but we instantly connected (even though she is about ten years older than me) over our similar tastes in film and photography and our fiery passions for the things we love.

The two weeks leading up to the trip now make up one of the most stressful and frustrating periods of my life. About two weeks before we were supposed to leave on our adventure I was hospitalized with a lung infection and a very low blood oxygen saturation level. I immediately reverted to the old blind determination I had used every time I was admitted to the pediatric ward when I was growing up. But in the back of my mind I was extremely worried that that would not be enough to pull me through this in time for the trip. I had been feeling pretty down for about a month beforehand – I had been in kind of a slump mentally. So, going into this infection, I already wasn’t my usual self as far as my head was concerned and now I somehow had to garner all my willpower and kick the infection to the curb in a very short period of time.

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The last week has been a little rough so I decided to cheer myself up by posting what is quickly becoming my favorite thing to shoot: waterscapes! I feel instantly calmer, happier, and more myself when I am on or near the water. I can’t really explain it but I love being near the ocean or on a boat fishing with my dad in the summer.

Some of these are not super great, some were taken on my phone, and some I am pretty happy with.

The Crooked Trees

This past summer I visited the Crooked Trees (also known as the Crooked Bush). They are located near Speers, Saskatchewan. I was visiting Speers for a Scottish family reunion on my mom’s side of the family. I had been to this grove of trees many years ago with my grandpa but hadn’t been back since so I was excited to go as I didn’t remember much from that first trip when I was so young. I snapped quite a few pictures although some aren’t very good because I was trying to figure out my dad’s camera on the go! If you are ever in that area of Saskatchewan it is definitely worth a stop to stroll among the crooked trees. For some more info on them check out Tourism Saskatchewan’s page:

An Ode to Vancouver

I fell in love last June. I fell in love with the ocean and the mountains; with the breeze off the water and the green of the red cedar trees; with the brick sidewalks of Gastown and the view from Prospect Point. I would go back today. I never would have left if I’d had my way.